Sunday, January 23, 2005
my mood swing is back.. i haven tok to ani ppl for hrs.. i juz hate dis.. i wanna tell them.. bt.. argh... i dunno...
i gt sooo frustrated.. i cried.. my tears flow like water tap.. n i broke down in tears.. bt no one noes.. there's sooo mani thgs i wanna sae out... bt i cant.. i dun wanna hurt anione.. it feel soooo terrible puttin all in my heart.. can i juz knock onto somethg n forget everithg?? can i?
i tried my best to be a gd girl.. i tried my v best.. bt i cant..
it had been a long time i had dis feelin.. i juz dunno how to handle emotions..
no one is at hm now.. everione is out.. shoppin.. n i nv go.. hu's fault? me n my mood swing.. i wanna go.. bt..argh..
i cant think of ani nice layout.. felt so discourage my wat my lect had saed.. maybe i'm juz nt gifted in ani thg.. i juz meant to be some useless jerk...
i'm soo soli mummy, da jie n er jie.. u guys ask mi sth.. bt i nv even reply... so soli erik, jason,keke.. i realli dun feel like saein anithg.. so soli for nt replyin ur sms.. i noe u guys care for me.. bt i juz hate myself... i oso dunno wat i m doin.. i'm realli too stress up by all e' stuff tt had happened.. m i realli happi? i dunno.. i hv no idea.. maybe happi in appearance.. bt sad in heart.. i realli need a break.............. bt dyin is nt e' solution.............................................................................................
~fernny~ i'm so soli if i had hurt u..
caught a falling star @ 2:35 PM